I think it’s common problem for everybody that we need to love ourselves before love someone. And especially for LGBTQ, it’s more difficult problem because it’s not usual. Accepting unusual things is hard for human. I’ve experienced this hard procedure so this song is super meaningful for me. And touched me.

I wanted my fiends to know this beautiful song and you know? I’m a big fan of 「およげ、対訳くん」I can’t stop myself to make Japanese translation.

Every day before today was never gray

It's always black and white

Until tonight, yeah

I wasn't expecting you to have me seeing sepia

In shades of light

But it feels so right, yeah

The way you touch me

The way you hold me

My heart's about to burst

You are the first to really know me

I wanna love, but first I need someone to show me

Afraid to fall in first, but that's the old me

There's something 'bout you

That makes my skies blue

And whenever we're through

All I can do is see color

There's something 'bout us

When we're together

Whenever you're there, everywhere

I see color

今では全然自分らしくいられなて

いつも自分を偽っていたんだ。

君が僕にこの素晴らしい世界を見せてくれるなんて全く予想していなかったよ。

世間からしたら「影の世界」かもしれないけど、僕には居心地がいいんだ。

君の触れ方、抱きしめ方

全てがツボでもう胸がはち切れそうだよ。

君は僕の初めての理解者。誰かと真剣に付き合いたいなって思ってたけど、僕と同じように愛してくれるっていう保証がないのが怖くて、心ままに人を好きになれなかったんだ。でももう僕は大丈夫だよ。

君はなんか違うんだ。いつも僕の心配事を取り除いてくれる。君と別れることがあったとしても、僕は僕でいられるよ。

二人でいると何だかパワーを感じてさ。いつだってどこでだって僕は僕でいられるよ。

Every second you can bet my heart's collecting

Little butterflies

When I see those eyes, yeah

When our hearts collide

I hope our world is a kaleidoscope

'Cause black and white

Never shines so bright, yeah

The way you touch me

The way you tease me

I'm trying not to fall for you

But falling seems so easy

My heart was locked, but boy you got the key to free me

Invisible to love but boy you see me

There's something 'bout you

That makes my skies blue

And whenever we're through

All I can do is see color

There's something 'bout us

When we're together

Whenever you're there, everywhere

I see color

君は確信していいよ、僕は君の目を見るだけで、毎回恋に落ちちゃうんだ。

僕たちが「恋をしている」っていうこの瞬間は、きっと万華鏡のように輝いているよね。だって偽ったまま生きてたら、こんな幸せには出会えなかったんだから。

君の触れ方、からかい方

「これ以上好きになるまい」なんて考えてみたけど、そんなの無駄だったよ。

僕は傷つかないように心を閉ざしてたけど、君が僕を救ってくれたんだ。

「愛」は目に見えるものではないかもしれないけど、君は僕のこの愛情を感じるでしょ？

君には何だかすごいパワーがあってさ、いつも僕の不安を見逃さないんだ。

君と別れることがあったとしても、僕は僕を好きでいられるよ。

二人でいるとすごく強くなれて、いつだってどこだって僕は僕のままでいられるんだ。

And maybe the world will never understand

Our kinda love

Say, "That's quite enough!"

But I'll fight for us

I'd like to be the kinda man

You'd like to love

We've got a right to love

And baby, I'd like to love you

'Cause you're my favorite hue

もしかしたらさ、世間は僕たちの「愛」を「愛」って認めてくれないかもしれないよね。

「もううんざりだよ！！！」

なんて思うこともあるけど、僕は僕たちのために戦うよ。僕はそういう人になりたいし、君だって僕と一緒にいたいでしょ？

僕たちにだってみんなと同じように誰かを愛する権利があって、ねぇ？僕は君と一生一緒にいたいって思ってるよ。だって君は僕の全てなんだ。

There's something 'bout you

That makes my skies blue

And whenever we're through

All I can do is see color

There's something 'bout us

When we're together

Whenever you're there, darling I swear

I don't see color

君はなんか違うんだ。いつも僕の心配事を取り除いてくれる。君と別れることがあったとしても、僕は僕でいられるよ。

二人でいると何だかパワーを感じてさ。いつだってどこでだって僕は僕でいられるんだ。

February is Pride month in Australia.

One of my friend told me there is a big parade called Mardi Gras in Sydney but I totally forgot until I saw a lot of rainbow flags in everywhere.

Anyway, it’s my first time to experience big pride events so I’m already super excited. Can’t wait.

2020-02-21

Nosebleed and tears

I often get nosebleed. Cuz of dry, too much digging or Mimi.
last night, when I kissed her nosebleed was started. Kissing with her makes my blood pressure high and it occurs nosebleed. Maybe.

Mimi often cries. No matter she is happy, sad or mad. Last night, she cries because she felt so happy. While I was in Japan, she kept crying because it was so loneliness. So I couldn't stop to back to Sydney.
When I made her sad (it wasn't my intention), she was looked mad but also crying.

She saied

My tears are nosebleeds for you

it sounds weird but it was super romantic for me.

2020-02-21

Nowadays

wake up around 6

make Mimi waking up

make breakfast

have together

stare her

wash clothes

clean up rooms

watch Netflix

take a nap

have lunch

go work

How happy am I ?

2020-02-21

About money

I can't save money.

Totally

And I was thinking the reason why I can't save money. And I think one of the reason is I don't have habit to save.

And I have heaps of spoiled stories.

Since I was kids I've never saved my money. For example, I have a lot of relatives so I got more OTOSHIDAMA than other friends. However the end of year, I always spent all of OTOSHIDAMA.

It was my family's special rule, I always got one present at my younger sis's birthday. When my own birthday, I got at least 4 presents which I could choose. T

When I was kids we didn't have pocket money system, so I could get what I want when I want cuz my parents always gave us.

We got pocket money from relatives when we had some special events. For example, school trips or conventions of RG.

So I've not saved money cuz I didn't need to save. Haha

So it's difficult for me not to buy something when I want and not to use money when I have.

And my mom as well, she also says she can't save money. I don't know the truth but she always says "we don't have saving money". I hope it's lie, but I know my dad loves cars and motor bikes. And my mom loves hanging out with her friends. So I think it's not totally lie. Haha. And my mom's habit is "People spending money influence economic" How positive. My positive thinking comes from my mom. Haha

Anyway, I want to work harder...